Ok so this is a whinge but we can't be sweetness and light all of the time hey?
Started out on Monday, all ready to head off to a new playgroup in the hopes of finding some adult company and also to give Nathan some 'let off steam' time. Lately it has been hard for him cooped up in the house with nobody to 'visit' When we were in Torquay our weeks were so structured. Here I am yet to find any of that plus because we are paying rent and a mortgage at the same time most of Raz's pay is putting a roof over our head. Have learnt to shop at Bi Lo and Aldi and it has made a small impact on the food budget. Anyway had the kids all packed up in the car and I was quite excited at the prospect of meeting new mums too. Of course the car doesn't start. I was in such a rage. Sick and tired of the electrical problems the car has been plagued with, isolated because I didn't even know where to start and find an Auto Elec to fix the problem once again and also scared because the funds didn't allow for a new battery or hell even the battery charger was an unexpected amount.
The next 2 months are going to be really tight, we have rego on the car, need a roady on the car too to get it registered in QLD and also all the yearly insurances are due. Plus the $2500 a month we are spending on rent and mortgage the ass pucker factor is creeping up. Also flying to Melb for Nate's specialist appointment has cost another $500. Thankfully food and accomodation is covered!
Ok so with all the money stress, I have been less tolerant of Nathan and his usual 'almost 3' can do but get sidetracked attitude. He was accidentally rough, forgetful, clumsy but otherwise helpful and adorable but last week I had zero tolerance. All I felt like doing was yelling, screaming, even terrorising him to make him scared of me. At a couple pf points I wanted to just put him through a wall. Thankfully he listened to me and left the room when I asked him ever so quietly to leave mummy be for 5 minutes. It saved both of us a lot of tears.
